Showing posts with label The Change I Wish to Be .... Show all posts
Showing posts with label The Change I Wish to Be .... Show all posts

Friday, 1 May 2020

Leap Before You Look



I usually exit a situation before it gets ridiculously painful

I'm the queen of the sharp exit

The fast turnaround

The leap before you look school of life




It has served me well

And kept me sane



Being a prisoner of a situation

Is the hardest thing for me to deal with



At the moment I am also a prisoner of my own thoughts

There are no plans

Just a need



To change.




Friday, 6 December 2019

What to Buy Me, or Not Buy Me for Christmas

VeganKind Christmas Selection Box 2019

It seems that most the vloggers and bloggers that I follow on the internet are doing sustainable gift guides.  Lovely to watch even if they are getting slightly repetitive with the same products being recommended here there and everywhere. 

I was thinking about it the other day, and I thought I must be the hardest person in the world to buy a gift for … mainly because I don't want one ... but also because I only use the things I use.


 I am allergic to perfume, so therefore allergic to most things with perfume in them.  I have a couple of body creams that I'm fine with, but only one that I love so I tend to stock up on it when it's on offer three for the price of two at Boots.  When I travel I have a couple of mini sized pots that came free with magazines that I fill up from the larger one.

  I'm pretty safe with hand creams, and strangely I am okay with most bath foams, although anything lavender is a favourite, so that tends to be what people get me if they really want to buy me something … and I don't mind having a stock of those tucked away out of sight in the bathroom cupboard.

To go back to what the vloggers that I follow are suggesting as gifts ...



I don't need a thermos style travel mug or a bamboo travel cup as now own more bamboo cups than I will ever get through in my lifetime, thanks to that being a 'good present idea' in lots of peoples minds, it really was.  But no more … please!


I have a brilliant set of metal drinking straws, not that I like them that much but they are better than plastic straws.  Obviously these will last me a lifetime, unless I do a Uri Geller and bend them out of shape 😄


I have a bamboo toothbrush and absolutely love it, and I will be investing in more once I have used up all the new plastic ones I seem to have both here at the Van and back home in Wales.  Why have we got so many .... I have no idea!!   Once they have outlived being toothbrushes they go into the box under the kitchen sink to be used as little cleaning brushes for round taps etc ... really useful.

VeganKind Selection Box 2018

This year like last year I have treated myself to the VeganKind selection box.  It's good to have a little assortment of goodies in the house that are suitable for me to eat when Alan tucks into his milk chocolate covered brazils and other assorted Christmas goodies while we watch a film.

So as well as being the awkward bugger who can't be bought perfume for, I also can't be bought a box of chocolates, a cheese board or even an off the shelf hamper.  Which is drummed home to me every year when Alan's hamper arrives from the agency he works through, and out of the thirty or so items there are if I'm lucky one or two that I can eat. 

This isn't a whingy, whiney post  (or is it 🤣)  it's just me talking to myself and wittering away.  Trying to explain why I'm not the easiest person to buy presents for.  

One thing that a lot of folk are coming around to realising this year though ... and about time too ... is that why buy for buying's sake.  Why has Christmas got SO commercialised that we are swapping presents with people we hardly know, not knowing what they want or like or need.  If we all just stopped, after sorting it out with the people we used to buy for, we could draw things back to how it used to be.  Buying presents for our immediate family only, or if they are all on board pull back even further and give that most precious gift of all time.

A visit to an elderly relative or neighbour with a small bunch of flowers and time to sit and have a chat, a meet up for a coffee in the run up to Christmas with time to exchange hugs, a catch up on news and a flurry of good wishes are both surely more heart-warming than a gift set of talc and perfume arriving through the post to be put into the cupboard with last years, and the years before.

However you do Christmas is right, it's good if that is how you want to do it.  I'm just whittering, stop me now, force feed me dairy free chocolate and tell me to shut up 🤣🤣

Sue xx
(not Scrooge honest ...)



Friday, 29 November 2019

Why, why, why


So today is Black Friday.  

Rather weirdly it is also International Buy Nothing Day ... I know which I'd rather support.

Deciding not to buy things makes some people look at you as though you're a bit strange.  Not wanting Christmas presents, anniversary presents, birthday presents, present for presents sake presents takes people aback.

Visitors bring presents I do not want, that I do not need.   I try to smile sweetly and thank them, but anyone that knows me well knows I struggle to smile sweetly.  Inside my head a voice is screaming why, why, WHY the fuck why.  

The most annoying ones say 'I know you don't like presents but ...'

AArrgghh!! 





I'll not be shopping today.


Sue xx






Friday, 28 June 2019

The Clothes I Thought Were Me ...



I'm still prepping for this weekends car boot sale.
  
After yesterday's big sort through and weeding out session on the book shelves I thought I would turn my attention to my clothes today for a bit of a change.  Although I did add a few more books to the box to fill it right up, it didn't feel right leaving a few gaps.

There are lots of clothes, some new but lots picked up from charity shops that I buy when in a buying mood and wear a few times before catching a glimpse of myself in the mirror, or catch my reflection in a shop window and think ... 'that's just not me'.  Then they get washed hung in the wardrobe and left to languish.

Well today they stopped languishing and were hung and priced before you could could even say 'what were you thinking'  😄



My retail background comes out when I fill up a clothes rail and  even selling at a car boot sale the clothes get 'colour blocked'.  It really does set them off to their best advantage and mean that people come over to have a look at our stall.

I hope this hot weather cools down a little bit for Saturday though, I really do not do well with this heat ... although it's been great for drying some spontaneous washing of Summer clothes that I discovered packed away ... that I had totally forgotten I had.

I did that well with my sorting out that I have even been able to make up two bundles of ten coat hangers to sell off.  We don't need as many hangers if we don't have so many clothes.


Sue xx




Thursday, 27 June 2019

The Books I Thought I Needed



I'm slowly but surely emptying the shelves of the books I thought I needed

The books bought to inspire me to do things I thought I wanted to do

The books that offered a glimpse into another lifestyle

The one I thought I wanted




Seeing the shelves empty

Slowly and methodically

Shows me that this was not the case



They were there to tease me

To remind me

Maybe to try and make me sad at money spent 




But now I have taken back the power

I can make gaps appear

I can change my possessions to suit me

The me that is now



The me that is actually me




It's so easy

And so invigorating

To see shelves emptying and boxes filling



And as the books go

New vistas appear

New horizons waiting to be discovered

More time to read



Yes

There are books that are treasures

That will never leave and will always live on my shelves

And in my heart


Sue xx

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