Thursday, 15 October 2020

Misty Morning - Time to Go


As I drive away from a landscape covered with a thick morning mist, with the sunshine battling to come through and burn away the moisture that covers the fields around me I feel no pang of regret for what I'm leaving behind.

I thought this life was the one for me, thought it was the one for us ... we both did ... but we had such differing ideas on how it should be.  A simple life is not an easy life, but a true simple life does not need money throwing at it to make it bearable, it's made bearable by the fun you have living through it, building it and then sticking with it and moving forward at a snails pace. You build it together and live it together, the days themselves making the life.  

It doesn't require tons of money to live a self sufficient lifestyle once it is set up, but it does require a level of perseverance, commitment and agreement, take that away and the lifestyle is not possible.  I have no recriminations, well perhaps one ... honesty three years ago would have meant an earlier and perhaps different reassessment of the situation and perhaps an earlier much different adventure for us ... but there's no turning back of clocks and regret is best left in the past where it belongs.  There's no festering from this point on, what's done is done.

For me from now on, my new smaller and simpler life will be town based.  

There will be no chickens to care for, lock up at night and have sad cremations for, no vegetable patch to weed, plant, cover and tend, no wood to gather or log burner to feed and no acres of land to maintain.   There will be no late night callers asking for help with broken down cars, no strangers pulling in to ask for advice about polytunnels and question our paint colours.  

There will still be wellies needed for riverside walks and walking boots for time spent in nature, but the time I gain back from living smaller and simpler with less responsibilities will be my time.  The lightness and relief will be all I need to see me through this transition from country dweller back to townie.

Maybe the small town life is the one for me, I know it used to be before we started our new life in the country ... I'll let you know, I pick up the keys tomorrow.





Sue xx


38 comments:

  1. You have to try things to see if they work. If they don't you can always go in another direction. Best of luck with your new life.

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  2. Good luck Sue, I admire you for being true to your values and beliefs, I’m sure you’ll feel happier in yourself with your decisions. We don’t live too far away Mawdesley, and we love Garstang , enjoy your new abode, and I’m sure you’ll also make new friends whilst living in a small town. Things are meant to be , and will fall into place
    Sue xx

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  3. Sue, I so admire your desire to stay true to yourself, even though it may feel unpleasant at times. Letting go is one hell of a powerful, spiritual practice. When I need to let go of something, I pretend I am Kevin Costner, in Dances with Wolves, when he is on the horse and galloping across the battlefield with his head back, his arms out, in complete and glorious surrender. Sending you much love from way across the pond. :)

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  4. I sincerely wish you all the luck in the world. You can't look back, it wastes time and energy at our time of life. You're moving forward with your life. I'm sure you will throw yourself into town life and make a success of it all. You'll have your little flat ship shape in no time. I'm looking forward to reading all about your new life in town, cos I'm NEXT!!

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  5. I'm all for doing what you really want, especially when we're not getting any younger. I'm full of admiration for you, Sue - living in a tiny place with no garden in a town isn't what I'd choose, but I'm not living there, YOU are and it's what YOU want! So good for you for choosing to follow your dream and do what you really want. I look forward to reading about your new adventures. xx

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  6. I wish you happiness and peace in your new home,as long as we have the health and the drive ,we are never too old to change direction and do what makes us happy and sometimes it helps keeps us young and absolutely never look back , we can only do something about today and tomorrow and hope to learn from the past and of course there is always a pug for a hug x

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  7. Good luck and happy new home!

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  9. Live and learn. Talk about simpler, just simpler in a different way. Your time, live it.

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  10. I so much admire your spirit and willingness to tackle a new life. Too many of us stick in the same grove. Like the saying goes we only have one life p, live it. This applies even more so in these uncertain times. I look forward to your new townie blogs. Good luck with your move. X

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  11. I sense in your post a spirit of "we" and then a spirit of "me". Are you leaving the husband behind too? If so, good for you in reclaiming your life. I am in the same boat... 2 acres now with a whole lot of work. Been looking in-town too but haven't made the move yet. I've been on this land now for 25+ years and I'm not so sure I can leave it. I'm too attached to the wildlife and everything else that lives here with me. But the husband? I could do without. *haha* Good luck with your new adventures. ~Andrea xoxo

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  12. Best wishes for your new home - I shall be thinking of you. Hope it all goes well.

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  13. A new day and a new simple life! I'm thinking of you. May everything go smoothly for you and may you have a happy beginning in your new home! I can't wait to see what you do with it!

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  14. Good luck with the move. I too look forward to seeing what you do with your new home. It it so good that you can leave your Welsh home behind without regret.

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  15. Wishing you every happiness in your new home. X

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  16. Sending you much love and wishing you every happiness in your new adventure. xxx

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  17. Good luck in your new home and I hope it turns to be the best place for you to be and you made the right decision.

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  18. I am sure you will love it in Garstang.My brother used to be the Methodist minister there and started up the Mustard Seed fair trade shop and a coffee shop.We have had many happy family get togethers in Garstang.A lovely little town and a great choice.

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  19. I have said this before but it stands repeating - you have such grace and courage.

    I was thinking of you this afternoon, remembering that tomorrow is the day you get your keys. Hope everything goes smoothly for you. xx

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  20. Good luck in your new adventure. Thank you for your honesty and sharing your life with us.
    I live in America now but know Garstang quite well. I lived in Blackpool for some time and Mum had a caravan in Garstang for several years.I loved it there.
    I will be thinking of you and looking forward to your posts and your news.
    Pam in Texas.x

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  21. Sending very best wishes Sue for the beginning of your new adventure:) Your little flat will be home before you know it♥ xx

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  22. Wishing you all the very best in your new adventure and hoping that everything runs smoothly tomorrow. Every happiness in your new home Sue x

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  23. Very best wishes for an easy settling in to your new flat, I'm sure you will have it organised and lovely very soon.So good to be all sorted and safe before the Winter hits.
    Fingers crossed the farm sells soon so you can move on from that .

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  24. My heart ached as I read this but your honesty and openness really shines out and I wish you every good thing for your new life in your new home.
    xx

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  25. Good luck Sue. Life is too short to be unhappy, I hope your new town living brings you joy.

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  26. Sending you all good wishes for your new home and may you have many happy times there.

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  27. Wishing you good luck and happiness in your new home.

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  28. All best wishes for the next stage, Sue.

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  29. Good luck for your next adventure Sue.

    God bless.

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  30. Not all things work out. When I look back on my years, the time that turned out to be truly wasted was the time I spent trying to make something that didn't work WORK.

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  31. Wishing you much happiness in your new home. Hopefully the move went well for you. xx

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  32. Home is where your heart is, and I've felt that your heart hasn't been on the smallholding for a while now. Blessings on this new route.

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  33. Good luck in the new flat! Do you still own the van?

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    1. It's going on the market in the next week or so, so not for much longer. It's time for the next chapter in my life :-)

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    2. That's good. Much simpler as you will have less to manage and look after. What about the Wales flat, did that get sold eventually or is it still rented out?

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    3. It's still rented out to the same guy. He's been a brilliant tenant so we are keeping the flat until he decides to move on, which is just dependent on his job as he's awaiting a transfer to Manchester to be nearer his girlfriend. Once he goes we will spruce it up and sell it on.

      I still love that flat and I think that is my biggest regret about our Welsh life, that I never got to live in it :-(

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    4. Well it's fortunate you've had such a good tenant and a shame he will be leaving. I LOVE Llandudno so I would have regretted that too but what's meant to be and all that! We have managed to visit Wales 3 times between restrictions, which is probably at least 6 times less than we normally would have by this point in the year but hey ho. I've really missed the place and my brother and sister in law who live there!

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