Saturday, 6 June 2020

When you shouldn't bake ...


You just shouldn't bake when you are sad.

You should eat crisp butties and sooth your soul with mugs of hot coffee.  You should walk until the cobwebs are blown away and the tears are dried by the wind.

But I baked.


I got the measurements of the baking powder and baking soda the wrong way round, and used far too much flax egg, and this explosion of Blueberry Muffin mix is the result.

The Aga oven was cleaned.


A replacement cake was found and called into service.

Tasty but not recommended really ... much too sweet, but what did I expect!!

Then I sat and sobbed my heart out on the swing.

Alone with just the bleating of the lambs blowing on the wind.




Yesterday my heart broke all over again.


Sue xx



27 comments:

  1. Awww she was such a precious wee thing, and so lucky to live her short life with you and the family. So much love.

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  2. Bella was precious. Now I'm crying too. It is hard, but do remember you gave her the best possible life and love. I'm so sorry.

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  3. Loads of love and ((((hugs)))) heading towards you. She was such a darling and small wonder you are still so sad. She was so happy during her short little life and gave so much joy.
    xxxx

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  4. Sending lots of love..Bella was such a little character and you did all you could for her. I'm in tears too. xx

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  5. Tears being wiped here Sue:( Bella was such a darling♥♥ xxx

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  6. Times flies but hearts take longer to heal. Oh dear re your baking.

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  7. Oh Bella, I still think of you quite often. I'm not a dog person (probably until I retire ...), but I so admired your sweet little dog and was sad with you when she died. She had an amazing life with you. Sending heartfelt hugs.

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  8. Hugs Sue. They touch your heart don't they? She was a darling little thing.

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  9. She was adorable. Sending a hug. xx

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  10. Sometimes we are overwhelmed by grief. But know that you are loved and you have many friends (in the real world & in Blogland) who care. I have kitchen disasters when I'm happy too...

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  11. Bella was adorable and these photos show just what a beautiful little life she had.They stay in our hearts forever,xxx

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  12. A year already! She was the most gorgeous little dog.

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  13. I remember your gorgeous little girl, I know how much you both adore your girls and all your pets, it really is so hard I know, I still get emotional thinking about pets who have passed.
    Marlene xxx

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  14. My condolences,, take care my friend.

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  15. Such a dear little girl. We do love our animals so much, they are family there's no mistake. Especially when they leave us. I hope the good sob and all the love sent to you through the airwaves has helped a bit. Lots of love from me too.

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  16. Awww Sue, she was so lovely. It's hard to believe it's been a year already. Take care x

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  17. That feeling doesn't ever go away - but why should it. It is a tribute to their unfailing love and loyalty but it is hard to bear. Take care.

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  18. Grief is so very hard. No time limit.

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  19. It really doesn't seem a year. She was adorable and well loved during her short life.

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  20. I'm so sorry Sue. Our fur babies do steal our hearts, don't they, and their loss is hard to bear. Sorry about the baking disaster too - I've had a couple of those during our Lockdown. I read your blog regularly, but for the past few months I haven't been able to comment. I hope I'f just solved the problem - there was something called "Allow cross-site tracking" that had turned itself off.... we shall see if enabling it has fixed the problem. Keep safe,
    Virginia

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  21. Caring is hard. I'm sorry you had this sadness but glad you were such a good and responsible human to your little chum. Mary said it well: Grief is hard and there is no time limit. Be in nature (even if you can't take a long walk) and look at beautiful things and cuddle your other companions! Sending you some good vibes!

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  22. We are going through this right now, having had to let our beloved cat of 20 years go a couple of weeks ago. I find it hard to concentrate on anything and think you are very brave to have tried to bake.

    God bless.

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  23. A year gone already. So sorry for your loss.

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  24. Thank you everyone for your understanding and your comments. It means a lot ♥️

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