I apologise for leaving things half hearted
For implying at things
But not speaking about them
For dilly dallying
And not being clear.
I should put the record straight once and for all
But sometimes once you speak the words
Or write them
Their black lines standing darkly on white paper or screen
They are there
And the die is cast
So really at the moment you know as much as me
You are getting a glimpse into the confused state of my mind.
Some of you saw a post pop up earlier this week
And at the time of writing that was it
My mind was made up
But I panicked
And back-tracked
But I should keep in mind that ...
Thank you for all the care and concern shown in the comments over the last couple of days. I think I just needed some space and clarity to set me on a new track and clear my mind. You are a great bunch of friends on here ... yes I do consider you friends. Thank you. xx
❤
I hope what's happening in your life is not as drastic as your last post sounded, but if so sending ((hugs)).
ReplyDeleteDon't be gone too long - we will miss you.
I echo what Sue says - take care of yourself, Sue (all Sues here!). Ultimately, we are all responsible for our own state of mind and happiness. And yes we are all friends. xx
ReplyDeleteEchoing what others have said. ((hugs)).
ReplyDeleteGod bless.
Thinking of you, Sue. Whatever you are going through, I hope you get your clarity soon. X
ReplyDeleteYes Sue we are a band of friends. You all helped me through bereavement - many because they had experienced it themselves. We are here for you whatever crisis is hitting you.
ReplyDeleteLove you Lots Sue XX
ReplyDeleteTake care.
ReplyDeleteDitto like the other comments.
ReplyDeleteTake care. xx
I was hoping that you might be feeling more at ease with life. Hugs from us
ReplyDeleteSo sorry that you are not in a good place at the moment and you certainly don't need to apologise. In the time that I have been reading your posts you have inspired me, made me think and helped me appreciate what I have especially as lately I have felt hard done by when really I have so much to be thankful for. I have at last got rid of something in my life that has made me miserable for 30 years, it took me a very long time to get the courage to do so and I feel liberated and can concentrate on the most important things that I am dealing with at the moment, one thing at a time and at the moment that one thing is my son's upcoming brain surgery and I shall need all my strength for that. Whatever is troubling you I wish you the strength to come through it, sometimes it is easier to share with people that are not in your immediate circle and you can say as little or as much as you like, when you like with no pressure, Do take care, Chrissie .
ReplyDeleteThinking of you Sue. Take care
ReplyDeleteI can only echo what everyone else is saying. Take care of yourself and share when you wish to or not but we are here with the best of wishes.
ReplyDeleteEchoing previous comments, take care.
ReplyDeleteI didn't see the 'post flashing across' but hope you are coping and dealing with things as much as you can in whatever the circumstances are at the moment. Follow your heart and remain true to yourself Sue. We Manc birds are tough!
ReplyDeleteSometimes in the past I have not put something troubling on my blog because I don't want to 'cast it in stone', to give the problem a shape, form, a permanence. Conversely there have been times when writing something out has been cathartic and helpful.
ReplyDeleteSue, you must do whatever feels right to you at that moment. Sometimes it might be 'publish', other days it might be 'private'. The important thing is that whatever you do helps YOU.
And yes, I think that our 'blog friendships' are every bit as valid and important as corporeal ones. I really do not know how I would have got through Daisy's death if I hadn't had the support of my bloggy buddies. Take care dear girl. xx
What they all said. Take care. xx
ReplyDeleteI do consider you a friend and I do care. Sometimes when we look at a situation we get overwhelmed because we are looking at too many things at once and that is hard for us to process. Slow down and take care of you and then just take one thing at a time. One day at a time and sometimes even one minute at a time. Hugs xx
ReplyDeleteThinking of you Sue, take good care♥ Wonderful comments and I especially think Bonnie hit the nail on the head with her heartfelt words, sometimes we have to take life one minute at a time. Love Linda xx
ReplyDeleteGlad to see your post, just to send a virtual hug and don't forget to be kind to yourself. Helen.S
ReplyDeleteI was relieved to see a post today and has everyone else has said - please take care of yourself and I hope it all works out in the end. Best of luck.
ReplyDeleteWishing you clarity and peace.
ReplyDeleteI echo what everyone else says. Sending love and hugs. Xx
ReplyDeleteI've seen your next post and was most relieved because, like others, I was getting a bit worried. So pleased that you are OK.
ReplyDeleteFriendship doesn't have to be face to face, after all.
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Be kind to yourself Sue. Whatever IT is, we are here for you and rooting for you. You are an inspiration to so many of us.
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Ditto what Bonnie said. We are here for you, to listen or lean on, what ever you decide, but we are here.
ReplyDeleteBe kind to yourself and take care. x
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